Everyone
has a story. Some people’s life stories are sad, some of them are
exciting, some are boring and some are inspiring. With my story I hope
to inspire everyone from all walks of life. I wont bore you with my
childhood journey into adult hood, instead I will start where life
really happened, and I mean this in the most literal way possible, when I
got pregnant with my son.
When I found out I was pregnant with my son I was 18 years old. I had many unhealthy habits. I smoked a pack to two packs a day. Caffeine was my best friend, as I would drink the large Red Bulls several times a day, on my minimal caffeine day it was coffee and two large Red Bulls. It doesn't stop there. My diet consisted of a bagel or croissant for breakfast, I ate lunch at Jack in the Box and dinner at Carls Jr. Back then I worked for a lawyer and we would take breaks and smoke cigarettes and drink coffee and I loved it! It made me happy. Receiving the news of being pregnant I was in major shock and definitely not ready to make any life changes. I found out I was pregnant really early, only about 4 weeks and my ultrasound showed only an egg. After my sonogram I went home and smoked a cigarette, considering this is what I had done to cope for the last 4 years of my life. After the shock I quit smoking and quit the caffeine as much as I could, I still had my one-cup of coffee every single day. Through out my pregnancy my wonderful husband talked me into walking every day, and so I did. However, I walked maybe half a mile a day if that. Even though I made big steps (for who I was back then) my diet was not that much better. I would eat pizza with a bag of carrots. I did always try to eat something good. I didn't have any money then so I lived off tuna helper and broccoli. The meals were cheap and I was saving for my baby. I didn’t know then that the most important thing was the health of my baby.
After a long pregnancy Cole was finally born. I fell in love with this little boy. I have never loved anything more in my life. But this love was not enough, this little boy never slept (he still never sleeps) he’s just not a sleeper. I became a little depressed. I had a little post partum depression and when that wore off I was still depressed. I remember visiting my mother. My mother told me I was depressed from not sleeping. While I nursed my new born, she continued to tell me I needed to join a group that had other mothers to support me. Well my mother had just had a baby herself, my little sister Ava she was about 2 when Cole was born. My mother did stroller strides back then and so I joined. In stroller strides we ran a quarter mile stopped and used some bands for strength. I was dying. I couldn’t run nor use the bands. As hard as it was I kept going, it got me out of the house and at the time I lived 45 minutes from my mom so I got to see her twice a week. My husband is a Marine and had to deploy when my son was 7 months old. I was 45 minutes from my mom and alone with a seven month old baby. Working out got me through the seven months of my life. It quickly became my release. While this is terrific most would say, I also began drinking wine, every night while my husband was gone. It got me through the lonely nights. I felt like I never got a break and never had a baby sitter. I hung out with my mom a lot and spent my first month living at my moms house, I was so lost. Drinking helped and when my husband returned the drinking never stopped it became a habit and a bad one.
After time Lauren and I started talking about me teaching for her. I became RKC, Russian Kettlebell Certified, my confidence really started to grow. I felt better than I ever have in my life and I had such great people supporting me. I felt like going into Lauren's classes I wanted to be better, as if what I was doing wasn’t enough and I found a way, I just figured it out. I grew to be really strong and confident. I got compliments on my body more than ever actually for the first time ever! I had this fire in me (I still do) to do something, to be something great; I didn’t want to settle for less. There was more out there, there had to be. I had a dear friend, make a phone call to a mainstream fitness photographer. I sent him some pictures and he said he would throw me in the “hopper”. Well these “mainstream” guys they get busy, my friend and I kept calling him and emailing and eventually he did a shoot with me for Compax. I went down to his studio with butterflies in my stomach I probably could have vomited. Luckily he was a really cool down to earth guy. I spent hours at his studio and when I left I never felt more alive. I had a rush and I wanted that to be my life. I had to figure that out too. While this was all a slow process I kept in touch with the photographer, and I tried signing with different agencies. I got really into my training, I got really strong and I was going to Lauren's classes 3 days a week and teaching one day a week. My life has officially changed since the day I found out I was pregnant.